weird girl at school...

okay, so i love school a lot... i love the atmosphere, the people, the classes... i love the social aspect of school a lot... however... there is this weird girl at school... okay, i admit... it's me...

i get so goofy at school that i think i drive everyone nuts... i am sure that i provide entertainment for my classmates as i say the dumbest things sometimes... and i get so excited that i get to hang out with everyone that i think sometimes i'm a little bit too hyper... i am up at school a lot during the week... and we only have class on monday and tuesday, so a whole lot of people live other places and commute... so during the week, and this summer, it's so quiet in the building and it's no fun at all... so when people are in the building, i am so happy... that's definitely the extrovert in me speaking out... crying to be heard... (and on top of being weird, i'm also a wee bit overdramatic at times...)

it just makes me feel happy to be around people... especially people who are in ministry and my age (or close to my age... or not really my age at all)... and there is this great camaraderie among the students (especially with the other girls) which is great... most of the time i really feel like i can be me around people at school, and in a couple different situations today i had to be really vulnerable... this can be hard for me, considering my "current life situation" (being female, being single, wanting to be in ministry and being in seminary)... which i will move on to now...

even though i love school and love people at school, sometimes i find it hard to be a single female in seminary... this is probably the most liberal southern baptist seminary i could have chosen, with regard to women in ministry, and i'm grateful for it... but it's still a challenge... i am sure there are times when biases play into the experience... whether or not it's intentional... and combined with the fact that i already feel like "the weird girl at school," sometimes it's difficult...

okay - the thoughts aren't formed beyond that - even those aren't that formed... but, well, it's what is in my head... maybe i'll save this as a draft and decide if i'll actually post it tomorrow... that's a GREAT idea!!!